things that aren't so great.

things that aren't so great..
well there's a lot of them.

one of many reasons could be the fact that you don't answer me when i call, even though i'm dying to hear your voice but it's as if i never cross your mind.

i'm in a really foul mood at the moment, and i just want to talk to someone.
i was talking to an old 'friend' and they're just treating me as if i'm nothing. i used to be able to talk to them
about anything, and we used to be extremely close but due to recent events that i am not going to discuss, they just don't even consider me at all. i try to speak to them but honestly, their response is something less than monosyllabic.

why do things have to end up this way?
why can't we just forget any stupid things that have happened and move past them?

i honestly thought life was much more enjoyable when you get over the stupid problems and talk to each other as normal. surely i'm not the only one who thinks this.

there's literally nothing i want more than for us to be friends again. but, of course that would only happen in a perfect world. in this world, people are self centered and think the only thing that matters is their own self. its disgusting. no matter how hard you try to regain a friendship with someone you've fallen out with, there's always something holding back even the slightest chance of being close once again.

you make me miserable, you always did. in fact, i'm more or less relieved you don't care about me.
but it's just the constant thought of what could have been which annoys the heck out of me.

friends?
no, only up until the moment that something unexpectedly decides to ruin the whole thing.
if i actually call you a close friend, that means that i'm more than comfortable around you and i trust you enough to tell you everything. anyone else i talk to are just people that i perhaps may have a lot in common with or i might need help with something. it sounds a little harsh but sometimes, you've got to look after yourself and make sure you aren't getting hurt. that's why it's great to have only a few close friends, so that you can manage everything.

i just really wanted to rant about people, so here we have it.
in the next post i'll probably do a little bit more ranting but goodbye for now.

(p.s i hate school so much, i have to write another 1000 words tomorrow for an english controlled assessment draft and i have no idea what i'm going to say. i just want to sleep. siiiiiiiiiiiiigh.)
in friends we trust - chunk! no, captain chunk!